Wedding and stuff

Got to be at a computer again, as most people who read this were at the wedding you know most things. We left for Speyside on Thursday and I have had a hectic few days of people fussing over me constantly, I am glad to be away from them again. All was done on time and the wedding was good, I was so pleased with the service and the weather was great for the time it needed to be.

We got safely to Dingwall on the night of the wedding and it was a great guesthouse to stay in, the breakfast in the morning was out of this world, prawns, rasperies, mellon and lots more, it was strange. After breakfast we went to Tesco and then to the Baptist Church, they are in a very similar position with a lot of things to Tilly and it was a great service.

After church we got on the road again and headed for Thurso, it was a very wet drive and I don’t think it has stoped raining since. There was a good discussion on at Thurso Baptist Church before dinner and then as we could not get the ferry until 0600 this morning we went to a B+B along the road from the ferry. We are now just filling in time before shops open and the ferry to the island that we are staying on.

Kirkwall is looking wet and windy, but we will explore soon.

Mrs Lane

Fish

Wen now have lots more little bristlenose plecos (type of cat fish) as I dicovered thismorning when I was having a look at the tank and what was happening in it, I am hoping that some of the photos come out well. Tonight I was ment to be geting my implant looked at but unfortunatly I can not take the bus to Alloa incase I hurt my back on it. So I will p-hone and try to postpone my check up till after the wedding. Lots of people have been pointing out to me today that a week tomorow I will be on my way to Speyside for my own wedding- never thought that this would happen.

I also broke one of the heaters in one of the tanks today so there have been some fishes moving house and having top settle in and fight over caves- I will leave them to it for the moment and see how things are when I get back in tonight. One of my friends came round today to say that if I wanted to spend the evening at hers with a house group then she would come and pick me up to get out of the house.

I should be working on the embrodery for my wedding dress as there is work to be done on it that I should stop procrastinating over. I have quite a lot to do in some ways but in others I feel completly ready and organised.

I feel quite a lot better, I can still feel the pain but it is less and I have moved down a notch in pain killers from this time last week. I want to be able to drive in a weeks time, that way I can actuly be of use and get things done myself without having to have everyone else running after me and Kit.

Fiona

almost all public

people who care to look, most of my old entries have also been made public now, some are still locked but that is for their own reasons.

Special

I feel special, I feel happy and I feel right. It has been a very strange week witha lot of turning point and a lot of changes being made to my life.

I have a year out of uni- this is good, I might get the chance to become a teaching assistant ina school when I get better, I hope I do as this would be ideal for me. I am glad I will not be studying for a while and I can see thing s to do with my time.

I have come to an understanding and a friendship with someone I use to find unaproachable and hard to handle, she once said something that hurt me deaply and when we spoke about it this week I found she did not mean to say what I heard, we talked, I cryed, she helped, I have a new friend because I chose to face a fear.

Kit and I are closer, lots of reasons, lots of ways. He is getting more and more special to me and I am falling more in love with him as time goes on. I know that that is said far to often and probably ment by most, but I am feeling more love than I reaised I was capable of. I am beinng more me and open than I thought I could be also.

I was speaking to another person tonight who I feel will be becoming more and more involved in my life, I am letting people in, it feels good, I am learning that friendships can be mutual and they do not automaticly have to hurt.

Life is special, it changes some changes feel right, this week was full of them, all of them feel right. I have peace.

Fiona

Looking better

Well I wnt to my own GP today and she was so much better. Listened to the history of the injury, the treatments and the problems I told her what had been happening and she sorted out my pain relief so as it will be a bit better than it has been.

she also spoke with me about what I wanted in the way of a doctors line for uni. I told her all the relevent parts and the demands the course would put on me if I went back to the university at any time this semester. At least she, I and my tutors all agree with me about what is wise. I am leaving uni for a year and will return next year and graduate a year late.

It sounds like a bad thing but in reality I am very happy with it and I can see many plus sides to doing it this way. I am happy, I know it wont be easy and I am about to phone up about my funding so as I can not be told that I am not keeping them informed either.

Calm.

Fiona

Crying game

Well I have got myself all upset today. I thought I was going to get a chance to get my back sorted out, that being what you would expect at a back clinic, but oh no, instead I am told to go boil my head by and ununderstanding prick that just tells me there is no bone damage and therfore there is nothing he is will ing to do and I should get to a swimming pool and get back to work on Monday.

This is dispite all everyone else has told me including a doctor and a phisiotherapist that I should not bee looking at going back to uni for a few weeks and should be getting better by gental exersise and not back numbing cramming that is going to take about 50 hrs a week.

I am upset, I am angry and I am utterly pissed off.

I will see a GP tomorow that might have and actule look at my back instead of ignoring the fact that by feeling it you might be able to see that there are serious problems there that have been there for months and do actuly need treating. Grrrr Hiss, weep.

Dispondent

Dads

With Liz talking of her dad and me just having had a visit from mine I think that this post is in order. My Dad previously has not been all that great with his job and generalness, however he came yeasterday, loves his job, looks great and has been as supportive and helpfull as you can imagine. I know I appretiate all help at the moment as my back is out, but it felt good to be proud of him, it is the first time I remember feeling that.

Fiona

I still feel rotten

You are Sir Didymus!! A Fearless and valiant
warrior who will fight to the death if you feel
strongly enough about it. Your friends rate
you very highly and so they should because you
are a loyal and wonderful person.

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I have to study, I have to work, I have to get better, my pain killers have changed but they feel like Fiona killers instead, I am losing my faith that all will be well for three weeks time, things are beging to seem very hard and I am not enjoying the chanlange at the moment, I am low. Diazapan is not good, I must get on and study, I have too much to do, I have been back a month and the essays are multiple and the presentations are needeing done also.

Dont belive a word of the lab quiz
Fiona